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".....Very few of us are fortunate enough to have a bona fide courtesan occupying our beds, and most of us wouldn't like the idea of sharing her, anyway. So we'll have to settle for the next best thing, which consists of training that delightful, over-educated all-American doll we picked up, to be the private courtesan and beautiful show-animal a real man has some use for.
With a pure-bred dog one begins training it when it's a puppy--using a combination of commands, love, punishment and reward to set up the sort of conditioned reflexes--obedience, if you will--which is so essential in a good dog.
Women, however, are not dogs. They're more like horses. Wild horses. And like a yearling which has grown through her colthood on the range, the average doll must first be broken to the saddle before love, punishment and reward can have any effect......"
But the Philistines took him, and put out his eyes, and brought him down to Gaza, and bound him with fetters of brass; and he did grind in the prison house. ... Then the lords of the Philistines gathered them together for to offer a great sacrifice unto Dagon their god, and to rejoice: for they said, Our god hath delivered Samson our enemy into our hand. And when the people saw him, they praised their god: for they said, Our god hath delivered into our hands our enemy, and the destroyer of our country, which slew many of us. And it came to pass, when their hearts were merry, that they said, Call for Samson, that he may make us sport. And they called for Samson out of the prison house; and he made them sport: and they set him between the pillars. And Samson said unto the lad that held him by the hand, Suffer me that I may feel the pillars whereupon the house standeth, that I may lean upon them. Now the house was full of men and women; and all the lords of the Philistines [were] there; and [there were] upon the roof about three thousand men and women, that beheld while Samson made sport. And Samson called unto the LORD, and said, O Lord GOD, remember me, I pray thee, and strengthen me, I pray thee, only this once, O God, that I may be at once avenged of the Philistines for my two eyes. And Samson took hold of the two middle pillars upon which the house stood, and on which it was borne up, of the one with his right hand, and of the other with his left. And Samson said, Let me die with the Philistines. And he bowed himself with [all his] might; and the house fell upon the lords, and upon all the people that [were] therein. So the dead which he slew at his death were more than [they] which he slew in his life.
This seemed odd. Even I knew only whisper the last four of my sacred identity digits. When I next went in with a deposit, I mentioned to the teller that I hadn't filled it in but had ignored it on purpose, and I must say, she overreacted in quite a fluster, saying they were a misprint, she scratched the line out vigorously with her pen, and gave me a handful of replacements. Chase Bank
To worship or defy God, as I understand him, is my birthright as a citizen of the United States. I was raised without an awareness, one way or the other, that I'm not a Bishop, or if I am a Prince. That's what an Iowa public education offered in the era, and I imagine they do the same today. I had to learn the truth of those matters the hard way, and it's too bad the American attitude of, "any boy can grow up to be President." will need to be seriously reexamined in the aftermath of the Bush Presidency--the one boy in 300 million that should have been spotted and steered to safe harbor long ago.I remind myself, the people hurting most in America right now are the former fans and allies of George Bush, for whom everything has gone wrong. Especially those caught up in Iraq, in a near impossible dynamic. Bush could pull something satisfactory out of the hat. He would need to go to the Iraqi people and level with them. It's all about divvying up the oil money, and Bush will need to lose money on the deal, like he's lost on every deal he's ever made, and they knew it to begin with. So rather than surge, so plain and humdrum this time of year, I suggest Bush sticks with a tried winner, Dior's 1947, the New Look--by looking people in the eye, especially the Iraqi people, straight in the eye, and make a deal, it's not like he has ever paid the consequences before. Maybe that's what God wants.
Occasionally I share someone else's connection with their higher power, one that feels distinctly different than mine, sort of like when George Bush hugged James Brown. When I'm trying to be helpful, or be of service somehow, I'm provided with the perfect cover. God has trained me pretty well in these matters. He wants me out of doors everyday to experience what we've created together, alone from His other creations is a fine option, but I can't shirk opportunity to face outwards towards others, and he tasks me viciously to test my willingness. Am I willing to drive someone less fortunate to the hospital or the airport? If I say yes quickly enough, I often get an eleventh-hour reprieve. I can't divorce any part of me off, even for a Saturday night. He has to come along, wherever I go. He seems to enjoy himself as often as I do. I certainly wouldn't try to achieve some goal I thought He might like, by using a means I know He wouldn't. The world is a safe place, not an oyster exactly, but not filled with hungry sharks either. So I try not to judge. Some people are just pigs, and that's OK by me.


If this rotor was from a 757 jet engine it would be nine feet in diameter. It looks to be about the same size as this man's inseam (the length from his crotch to his heel,) maybe 38 inches. Not that I'm trying to draw attention to his inseam, mind you.
This compares Penny Elges's Dodge Neon with a 757 jet. Remember to account for perspective! The car is closer to the camera so it looks bigger than it actually is!




Was I gay, till today.....Now he's gone and we're through.....Am I blue.....Oh he's gone and left me.....I am blue....but I remember when I was gay.
You know, none of this looks like any fun. Nor does it look inter-connected, healthy, balanced, or productive. Reminds me of my misspent Tennessee youth, hearing them "speaking in tongues," which could then be topped by the person who would "translate" into meaningful, if somewhat repetative, English, but hey, nobody ever argued.